Put a match to my core.

Each moment of a happy lover's hour is worth an age of dull and common life.
-Aphra Behn

A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous.
-Ingrid Bergmen

Come live with me and be my love, and we will some new pleasures prove, of golden sands, and crystal beaches, with silken lines and silver hooks...
-John Dunne

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.
-Thomas Fuller

Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me.
-Sarah Bernhardt

Make me immortal with a kiss.
-Christopher Marlowe

Love is the enchanted dawn of every heart.
-Alphonse Marie de la Martine

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
-Aristotle

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.
-Oliver Wendell Holmes

Love distills desire upon the eyes, love brings bewitching grace into the heart.
-Euripides

There is no remedy for love but to love more.
-Henry David Thoreau

The soul that can speak with its eyes can also kiss with a gaze.
-Unknown

To get the full value of joy you must have someone to divide it with.
-Mark Twain

The only true gift is a portion of yourself.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

My heart is ever at your service.
-William Shakespeare

Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
-Elizabeth Browning

To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.
-Karen Sunde

If I know what love is, it is because of you.
-Herman Hesse

Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essense.
-Vincent van Gogh

If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever.
-Alfred Lord Tennyson

In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life.
-Bliss and Cerney

The more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite.
-William Shakespeare

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.
-Robert Heinlein

The most powerful symptom of love is a tenderness which becomes at times almost insupportable.
-Victor Hugo

I wished for nothing beyond her smile, and to walk with her thus, hand in hand, along a sun-warmed, flower-bordered path.
-Andre Gide

What I feel for you seems less of earth and more of a cloudless heaven.
-Victor Hugo

My night has become a sunny dawn because of you.
-Ibn Abbad

When you came, you were like red wine and honey, and the taste of you burnt my mouth with its sweetness.
-Amy Lowell

You're nothing short of my everything.
-Ralph Block

Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.
-Alexander Smith

All love is sweet, given or returned.
-Percy Bysshe Shelley

How delicious is the winning of a kiss at love's beginning.
-Thomas Campbell

Love is friendship set on fire.
-Jeremy Taylor

I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.
-Roy Croft

The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.
-Unknown

Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
-Mark Twain

So dear I love him that with him, All deaths I could endure. Without him, live no life.
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart.
-Josiah G. Holland

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
-Sam Keen

Come, let us make love deathless.
-Herbert Trench

Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one.
-John Keats

Love is the emblem of eternity: it confounds all notion of time: effaces all memory of a beginning, all fear of an end.
-Germaine De Stael

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach...
-Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Not too shallow. Just too deep.

Can you imagine?
-I can hardly speak.

Sweetest dreams.

Aftereffects of a carousel ride.

I had a typical bimbotic conference in bed early in the morning.
-Then we really have to go.

Bill for the entire day spent on food summed up to $100++, for three lonely souls. Alfredo, Carbonara, Crepe Champoign, Strawberry Soda, Peach Soda, Lychee Soda, four cakes, and two shakes.
-As if you have a choice.

When we were at TCC, we ordered two Chocolate Delice, a Marble Cheesecake, and a Devil Chocolate Cake. These Chocolate Delice cakes were amazing. Tetek Hancur saw a round thing inside and she ate it. Susu Tetek also saw a round thing in the other Chocolate Delice and here was what happened.
ST: Hey! A cherry, I like.
(Susu Tetek put the 'cherry' into her mouth and started chewing.)
ST: Wow. How come it tastes so weird?
(Susu Tetek's face turned sour. It tasted so queer, only to realise that it was a rum.)
ST: Rum! Huh, it's a rum? Oh my god, a rum! How come (TH) didn't tell me it was a rum?
TH: I wanted to tell you, but I forgot.
ST: I ate a rum!
ZG: Hahaha. What, there is rum in that cake? Huh, huh?
ST: You already had it. Chocolate cakes are dangerous.
ZG: How come (TH) has no reaction when she ate it and look at you?
TH: Nothing what. It's just a rum.
ST: I'm drunk. I'm drunk. I ate a rum!

So it went on and on.
-I'll sing it one last time for you.
..That I ate a rum!

We left the airport at 2100 and headed for Whitesands to meet Nadz and Ash. We were standing outside Whitesands and they were sitting observing us for five minutes before we actually realised their presence. Sooo embarrassing, haha. ZG was humming to Run and it really got into my head. I guess that explains why. So while ZG went to serve beers and TH went to Geylang, I stayed with them outside Mcdonalds for consultation. So I got home at around one in the morning and I was so exhausted.
(ZG and TH, spare me for the nonsense. Haha.)

Made me wondered.
What have you been going through?
-I can hardly speak.
The emptiness in those beautiful eyes.
-To think I might not see those eyes.
A thousand words they can speak.
You never did.
-To think I might not see those eyes.
-Makes it so hard not to cry.
The past.
Something so hard to fathom.
-And I can barely look at you.
If only your voice surrounds me.
Even if the time has to stop.
I know much more.
-You've been the only thing that's right.
-In all I've done.
Those smiles mean nothing.
-Louder, louder.
Those pain will not be in vain.
Your presence.
-I understand.
-Why you can't raise your voice to say.
Those greens don't just end at your foot.
-Even if you cannot hear my voice.
-I'll be right beside you, dear.

I'm hardly worried about my academics and all. But this time, I really do.

Lyn, the eternity thing I said weeks ago, I felt that it's true. It may be silly, but this time, it feels different. Harti hancur.

Nabz, your song.

Loves.

Daytime stories.

Indeed, life is full of disappointments. However, disappointments are full of life. Several disappointments are crashing in all at once and my attempts to salvage any situation would be futile. One of which would be my results. Honestly, I would be satisfied with my results so long as they are below 23 points. This was derived at the back of my mind in the year 2007. I mean, you should have seen my results back then. Despite doing a point better for my prelims than my Os, I am still somewhat contented with my 16 points.
(I should think so.)
Besides, it's pointless lamenting since everything has already been done. No use crying over spilled milk. All I can do now is weighing my options and pursuing my interest. Unfortunately, my field of interest isn't within the compound of polytechnics' courses. Psychology Studies is partially one of which, but I want something more focused on psychology. If you get what I mean, that is.
That's why my girls asked me to open a polytechnic of my own- Jean Polytechnic.

Rule #0001:
Enrollment of ugly girls and hot guys ONLY!

Rule #0002:
Tattoos and piercings are part of the requirements.


31 December 2008, Wednesday/ 01 January 2009, Thursday:

A transition.

Nab and I were working that night, and instead of spending New Year with other fisherians, we actually spent it together. The clock stroke midnight when we were on the bus, heading for Downtown East. Both of us had a decision to make. I followed my instincts with a baby step.

Downtown was jam-packed with humans. Everyone was in high spirits, jumping and yelling. We bumped into Jorges, Trisha, Wan Yin, Denn, Jonathan, Hup Ming, and John. We were dining in at a restaurant at E! Hub when he called. There was a mixture of feelings boiling inside of me. Nab said I looked like I was having spasm, but yeah, I was so inflamed. The call sort of came at the wrong time, so I told him I would call back later.

Things happened. It wasn't something for the better, but he handled it maturely. You know, unlike some kids, being puerile and all. Well, at least I have gotten something off my chest. I was relieved.

Then we sat down and rang Lyn up. Oh, we saw Kyril and his girlfriend too. How coincidental. We didn't stay out for long, actually. I think we got home at around three in the morning. Wow, I was bushed.


09 January 2009, Friday:

Lyn and I met up early that day to have our lunch at Fish & Co. express before heading back to school to get my cheque. It was a Friday and CCA Open House was on the following day, so naturally, there would be training for the kids. We went to the dance studio, we went to see several teachers which included Miss Karin Wong, Mrs Koh, Mr Choo, Mrs See, and Ms Shelia. We bumped into Ms Wong and Mrs Wong as well. Very soon, we left for work. Lyn was running late as her shift starts an hour before me, so we took a cab down. I was in a horrible mood since..

I was deployed as the greeter as I was replacing Zul. Goodness gracious, that was my first time officially being deployed as a greeter! I was tensed especially when it was a Friday evening. We weren't expecting to open station D, but well, guests kept coming in. I don't know how well I fared, but that day was, cool. Lyn and I were playing with Farhan's astronaut-ish helmet. It was nice to wear. I bet we looked funny.


10 January 2009, Saturday:

It was CCA Open House, but I missed it. Initially, I wanted to go badly and kept grousing that our Basic Food Safety workshop clashes with it. But when we decided to skip the workshop, I was too lazy to go for the Open House. I slept through the morning and met up with Nab, Sally and Anne in the afternoon. We had our lunch at FCX and took a cab down to Temasek Poly for their Open House. We toured around the campus and we saw Shikin first. Subsequent people we bumped into were Nicholas and gang, Nadz and Khai, Mel and friends, Thob and Haeqal, and et cetera. It was like a Sophix gathering for us, except that Iqbal was the substitution for Lyn that day. Haha.


11 January 2009, Sunday:

Lyn, Anne, Nab, Hanah, Phebs and I attended Beverage workshop today at Glass House. Coincidentally, Mel and I were in the same group again, along with Lyn. It was like a Loyang Primary School reunion as Nab is one of us too. I have learnt more this time as it was out of context, so yeah, overall, it was a fruitful trip.

While Hanah went off with her boyfriend and Phebs headed home, the four of us went to Secret Recipe at PS for our meal. I was starving! So happened that Cloud, Yono and Carmen came in after us, and they joined us as well.
Fisherians dining at Secret Recipe.


12 January 2009, Monday:

The release of O Level results.

Sophix went in together, and it was like whoa. I wasn't very uptight, as usual, until when Arian was collecting her results. Next was Charissa, followed by Jean.
I got all Bs and a D for my Combined Humanities. At least my Humanities improved by two grades. So overall, I got only 16 points. Nadz was the first to ask about my results, Ash and Mon and people were probing about it too. My dad and mum were okay about my results as they have never expected much from me. I am a disgrace to Janet, though.

My day didn't just end there. Sally, Anne, Lyn, Nab and I went to Downtown East to have our lunch. We ate at Burger King, and after which, Sally and Anne left while the rest of us went to Gelare to chill. We ordered Mini Feast and dug in to different flavours of ice cream!
Yum yum.
As usual, we had lots of laughter(:
Then we saw a couple which melted our hearts. Judging from their brief yet sweet smooch upon meeting each other, we concluded that they aren't local. It was such a sweet sight.


You make my heart tingle.
Misses.